Sunday morning two days after surgery and it was time to take the bandages off, get a shower, and look at the site. I had decided today was the day. I had been dreading this, but knew it needed to be done and I wanted a shower. As I started to take the bandages off I got a little dizzy and had to lay down. Daniel was discouraging me, telling me to wait another day, but today was the day for me. I pulled the bandage all the way off and kind of looked at it when this feeling of dizziness and reality came rushing over me. I went to the bed and cried. Two insisions, that surprised me, two scars, bruises, part of my breast missing. It was just overwhelming and I felt a sense of loss, sadness, hurt, and pain. Daniel spoke the sweetest words just then, though I don't believe him right now, he said, "I don't think you look any different to me." Everyone left for church after that and I lay down and rested peacefully. The dizziness and troubling feelings melted away into the pillow and all was well.
Isaiah 43:2 When you pass through the waters I will be with you; an when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.
The rest of the day included a lot of nausea and not feeling well, a bummer of a day. Monica and Jenny came by with a happy face bouquet and an uplifting visit, and Kim came by and visited for a while. By the time she left I felt 100% better. Drank some gatorade. Daniel and I went for a walk and the rest of the night I felt fine. Slept well and woke up refreshed. Earlier in the day Victoria stopped by with dinner totally unexpected just as we were discussing what we were going to eat. God is continually meeting our needs.
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