This week the couch has been my friend, the TV has been my friend, my house has been my friend. I am tied to all three. Exhaustion has set in. After weeks of rebelling against the nausea, cabin fever, and malaise, I have finally given in. I don't want to run the risk of getting sick again, well the kind that puts you in the hospital. I'm done with that. If I have to stay in this house for the next 7 days I'm okay with that. This was the last round if chemo, and I just need to get through the last of the after effects and things should be looking up physically.
Today was our 19th wedding anniversary and extremely uneventful. I sat on the couch and Daniel ran errands for me. WooHoo what a rush.
Can you tell I'm in a little bit of a funk? Don't worry though, I'm not depressed or discouraged just tired and bored. This is not me, well this is not normally me, but it is for now and there isn't much I can do to change it. All I can do is go with it and hope for it to pass.
I have been encouraged by a resurgence of visitors that had trailed off there for a while. I am always happy to see anyone who takes the time to stop by, makes my day actually.
The other thing that has totally encouraged me this week is the provision of meals that I had not preset. Just somebody calling up to say they are coming by with a pot of soup, or to ask if they can bring dinner by tomorrow night. I had set up meals for last week, when I was supposed to have my last treatment, but this week kinda got forgotten for the most part. I gave it over to God, cause food and me aren't on the best of terms right now. And guess what, He came through like He has a habit of doing and well the kids have full tummies just like that. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good.
One parting thought. As of today Daniel is less than 30 days out to deploy. I haven't really thought much about it because I have kinda been preoccupied, but this past weekend his unit had their annual Christmas party and it was all about the deployment. Kinda got me thinking about it. School is winding down for the kids, I have lots of time on my hands, good time to star to process it all for myself and with them, as they will let me. This will be a hugh transition in a time where we are already having a hugh transition. Please pray for open lines of communication and compassion throughout our home, and for love and forbearance to abound toward one another as stress is running high.
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